Back to Work

Yesterday I went back to work after 3 months off with Cole. I cried the night before and couldn't sleep at all but when the day actually came, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be! Time actually flew at work and I smothered my desk with pictures of him!!! By 430 I started to feel a little pain and couldn't wait to see him. It was so great coming home to Cole, and part of me wishes I could always be with him. However, I know working benefits him better becauseit gives us time apart, for him to grow as his individual with several other influences besides mine. Also, I am able to provide for him and that's the best feeling ever. Being at work gives me a sense of individuality and intellectual productivity= happier me = better mom! I miss Cole every second I'm gone but it makes me really cherish every little smile, hiccup, coo, and yes, even diaper change!